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2 bECoME 1
LyING NeXT 2 yOU...2 BeCOme 1... FeELiNG THe PLeTHoRiC BeAtz oF hEArTz...SKiN W/ sKiN...wE SiNK 2-gETHeR....2 bECome onE...FiNgER 2 fINgER....wE MeLt 2-GEtHER....sOFt PeCKz....4Rm MoUTH 2 NeCK, paSSiNG THRu THe TREChERoUZ MoUNtaINz...aROuND THe BuTTOn Of No ReTURn, aND DOwN 2 oNGOiNG, nEvER-EnDING uPRiSINg BLisS...hAND iN haND...wE FLow 2-gETHeR, MeLtiNG..2 BECoME 1....
~CHaNeL HARrIs 10/20/02
"THeY SaY iF u LuV SuMTHiN LeT iT GO...iF IT COmEZ baCK 2 u ItZ URZ..aNd THaTZ hOW yA Know"... ;p
WIsH
i WisH I COULD tELL YoU THINGz...i WisH I WaSN't So AFRaiD...sO aFRaIdoF THe LeT DowN...ThE LeT DowN Of Ur WoRdZ...THe WoRDz 4Rm uR MoUTH...oF YoU pUSHiNG aWAy....aND Me BEiNG LeFT hERe...aLL ALoNE...By MySELf...w/OuT YoU...cUz i WaZ FooLiSH...aND 2 AFrAiD 2 2 sAy How I FeLt...2 aFRaID 2 LeT YoU KNoW... LeT U iN...2 My WoRLd...N 2 mE...WhERe iWANtED u 2 bE...BuT INSTeAD i SHuN...PuSHiNG U aWAy...FoRCiNG u 2 gO eLSeWhERe...wIShINg THe WoRdZ 4Rm My TOnGueWOuLD haVE bEeN LiFteD...WISHiNG u WeRE oN My TOnGue...WiSHiNG u REaLLy KNeW hOW i FeLT...hOPiNG aZ iF iT WOuLD haVe MaDe A dIffERaNCe...bUT KNowIng N rEaLiTY....iT pRObABLLy WOuLD haVE nOT...sO NoW i SiT hERe...CoNTiNuINg 2 WisH...WiSHiNg I CoULd TeLL yOU THIngZ...WISHiNG u WeRE hERe...WiSHiNG yOu kNEw...
~CHaNeL hARRiS 12/2/02
GaME oF LifE
THeY SaY TImE WiLL CHaNGE THiNGz...
BUT THaTZ uNTRuE
...aLL THe THiNgz U THoUGHT u kneW Come oUT 2 b A SkrEW...
NO ONeZ heRE 2 hEAR uR CRieZ...
u hURT SO MucH 4Rm aLL UR paIN...
pHONINEsS aND LoNLiNEsS iZ DRiVInG u INsAnE...
U DoN'T KnoW WhaT 2 Do...ur ANGERZ bUILDING uP...
BuILDING uP IN2 A bALL...
a BaLL oF FRuSTRATiOn...
FRusTRATIoN,AngeR, AND paIN...
Itz How U FeeL....ConsTANTLy ROtaTING...
nEVER KNoWING WHeRE iTZ GoiNG...
aLL u KNow Iz THaT Itz THErE....
aND THaT IT WoN'T GO AWaY...
GO AwAY...U SAy...
Go AWaY W/ THe FRuSTRATIoN
FRuSTRATIoN CoMBUSTInG LiKe THe BEaT OF A DRuM...NEvERenDiNg sTRaNdZ...
u FeeL LocKED DOwN w/ baNdz...ANd ChaINED W/ CoMMaNDZ...
"LeT mE LoOSe" u CrY
WoNDeRiNG WHy...
iT WON'T DiE
JuST GRoW aND StAy aLiVe
U StRivE aND STRIve 2 gEt bY
N THe EnD
u'LL FiND n TImE...
THaT NOTHiNG iz pERFeCt...
NOTHING iZ TRUe...
4 wE R aLL PLaYERz N THiz gAMe
THiz GaMe oF LiFe, WhICh nEVeR ChaNgEz...
**((CHaN ChaN AkA CHaNEL))**
"ThE moSt HearTfeLt woRds U EvEr spoKe, WeRe ThE OnEs LeFt uNspoKen. anD SiLeNcE WaS tHe LaSt thiNg i neVeR goT 2 hEaR U say. a fiNaL gLAncE @ pHoTograPhs jUsT B-4 i SeT TheM abLaze. iM bAck N tHis FamiLiAr pLaCe. ThiZ pLacE wHeRe insiNcERiTy and emPtiNesS fiLL me uP. aNd thE "?" thAt bUrNs N My miNd,wAs iT Me oR ThE flaMe thaT diEd? JuSt aNotHeR pOEM aBoUt mY eMptY hEarT LeFt n pRoteSt. NoThiNg MorE aNd SurEly NotHinG LEss. tHiS pLacE wHerE inSiNcErity aNd eMpTInESS HAS GRowN"...
"If yOu LiVe 2 bE a huNdrEd, I waNNa liVe 2 be a huNdreD MinuZ oNe DaY, sO tHat I neVer hAve 2 LivE A dAy WitHouT YoU."
**oNE DaY u'LL aSK mE "wUtz mORE iMPoRTaNT...mE OR uR LiFe"...aND i'LL SaY "My LiFe"...aND u'LL wALk AwaY...NoT KNoWiNg THaT YOu R My LiFe** ;p
UNTiTLeD
So maNY TImEZ N LiFe...
We tAke THiNgz 4 GRAnTED...
WiSHiNG wE CaN TUrN BaCk TiME...
tAKinG baCk THE THiNgZ wE SaiD
aCTIoNz THaT wErE maDe...
NoT uNDeRStANDiNG THaT THiNgz haPPeN 4 A REASON...
BUT MorE So WANtINg 4 AnOTHeR CHaNcE...
A ChaNCE 2 Do oVeR WhaT WaZ donE...
2 GO BacK N THe paST...
THe PaST THaT haZ BROUGHT uz 2 THe PRESeNT...
THe pREsENT, WHeRE wE R 2-DaY...
WhERE oNEZ LeFT hEaR REGReTTING
REGReTTiNG The DeeDz THaT WeRE DOnE...
WoRDz THaT wErE SaiD...
ACTIoNZ THaT wErE MAdE......
THiNGz CoME aND gO
PeOPLE COme aND Go...
THozE THaT WeRE THeRE 2 C U GRow
hERE 2-Day...
goNE 2-mOrrOW
never stAying thE samE...
eVerythInG alWaYZ cHAngIng...
thInGZ u thought U KNew...
coME OuT BeiNg uNtrUe
u nEvER kNeW...
oNLy THoUGHt
4 YoU CAn NoT TuRN bACk...
oNLy LEArN, MOVE-oN, AnD NeVER LaCk
~*~ CHaN ChaN ~*~
ROtaTiONz
LIes AnD DECIETFuL GaMEz...EtERNaL pAiN aNd puNiShMeNt...nEvER kNOwINg WhICh WAy iZ uP...nEvER kNOWING iF uP iz DOwN...oR DOwN iz uP...JUST KNOwING THat each HuRDLe bEInG LeAPeD iZ BAReLy MaKING iT...KnOWING THaT My MiND eACh dAy iZ bAReLy tAKiN' iT..FeELiNg THiZ wAy nOT KnOwInG HOW 2 COPE oR DEaL...SEaRCHING 4 A WAy oUT...a WAy In...iN2 A wORLd FuLL oF happINeSS...AWAy 4RM aLL THe DeNNoUNcIaTIoN...FiLLED w/ ReVoLaTIoN,THaTZ gOt My MiND iN RoTATIoN..nEVER kNOWiNG WHeRE My LiFE iZ GOiN, JuST KNOWiN iTZ THERe AND THaT My LiFE iz ALWAyZ oN PLaY...ALWAyz mOVIN', nEvER @ My DiSMAy...WaNTiNG SO MuCH 2 eLuDe...ShUN AwaY4RM THiz NiGHtMaRe...hOpINg So MuCH 4 iT beInG No MoRE...
10/8/02
"?"
A ? QuESTiON ? aRiSEz N My hEAD...
aND iN my HeAD THat "?" WiLL StAY...
aNd aLL iT'LL eVER B Iz a "?"...
nO aNSWeR...StaTEmENt...yEZ,oR NO...
JuST aN EmPTy LiTTLe seNtAnce...
wItH a SiLLy LiTTLe SQuIGGLeY maRK aND A DoT...
ItZ LiKE THiZ "?" Iz oN THe oUTsIdE oF THE bOX...
AnD I...oN a QUEst 2...
FiND a WAy N THe iNSIdE...
LiFE iZ LiKE A bOOk...
BoOkz haVE maNy "?'s"...
BoOkZ haVE iNSiDEZ...
A BooK Iz LiKE A BOx...
A BOx haZ 4 SidEZ...
SO hoW DO U GET 2 Wutz iNSiDE???
HoW dO u GeT 2 Wutz NSidE oUT???????
aND oNCE N...
ONCE N SIdE.......
Do i ASk THaT "?"
oR iZ THaT "?", JusT A "?"...
NoT MEANt 2 b ASkeD...
NoR NOt mEANt 2 b AnsWEReD.............
~*~ CHaNEL haRRiS ~*~
5/21/02
StAY
uNKNowING 4-EvER GOING CoNFuSIoN
i WOnDER WHo u R...
aND WHy uR'E hERE...
WHaT iZ IT THaT BRINGZ mE 2 u?
WHy Iz iT THaT I FeEL cONNECTeD?
WHy i CAN't JuST moVE oN?
How cOme Ur'E nOt lIKe N e othEr?
u MAKe mE WAnna CoNtiNuE 2 trY,
STRiDING aND STRiVING 2 MaKe mY WaY bY
NoT uNDERStaNDiNg eXaCTLy WHaT u MEaN 2 mE
JuST SiMPLy KnOWING uR EXiSTeNCe iz pRESeNt...
aND kNowING THaT i neeD u hErE...
4 W/ oUt u i'M nOT WHoLe...
BuT W/ yOU i'M GUILtY...
GuILtY oF THe FeelINGz i CaRRy 4 u anD aNOTHeR...GiVE mE A REAsOn...A REASoN 4 mE NOT 2 fEEL THe WaY i Do...a REAsON 2 MaKE mE TuRN aWaY...ANY REASoN...SHOw me WHy i SHOULD nOT TUrN AROUND...GIve Me a reASon 4 Why I shOuLD STAY W/ yOu...
~CHanEL haRRIs ;p
** WUt U WANT MiGHT maKE u CRy...WUT u NEED mIGHT pASs u By..iF u dON'T CaTCH iT..WhEN IT HuRT SOoo BAD...WHy'Z iT FeEL SO GOoD? **
LeTTING gO
hURTFuLL REoCCuRING pATTERnZ
FaLLiNG 4 THe SAmE kIND...
THoSE THaT Say theIR TRuE...
THaT THEY'LL bE THERe 4 mE....
LiKE THeIR NOT Like aLL THE ReST i'Ve SeeN...
FINDiNg N THe ENd THiER aLL The SAmE
EvERyoNE oUT 4 THeMSeLVeZ...4 THe mOmENT...
bUT wHAt iF i WANT MoRE? WHaT iF i nEED mORe?
WHaT iF i nEED u? wHy AREN'T u hERe 4 mE?
WhY MuST I skRew UP wHaT i haD W/
WHat I wanTed? Only 2 haVe wHAt I wanTed
sKrEw Me OveR...
"THeY SaY iF u LoVe SoMetHiNG LeT iT Go...
iF iT COmeZ baCK 2 u ItZ URZ"...
bUT THeY nEvER SpeaK oF WHat iF iT DoESN't...wHaT iF NOThINg Iz RETuRNeD?
WHaT iz THaT oNE WHo Let SoMETHiNG THeY THoUGHt THeY LoVed So vERy MuCH SuPPosE 2 Do? WHaT THeN.....
2/17/03
SaVoR
THe FeELiNG oF CRaVING SuMTHiNg...SoMeONE...So BaD..THe iLLuSiONaL VIEW oF YOu...wiShiNG So MuCH, THaT u WErE nEAR...2 ToUCH... 2 FeEL...2 KiSS...bUT uR'E nOT..So i WAiT...WaIT TiLL THE TImE WHeRE u R...ARE hERe 2 TOUCh AnD FeEL...SAVoRiNG EvERy MoMeNT...EvERy MoMeNT u R hERe...NEvER LETTiNG Go...GRASpING TIGhT...CLEnCHiNg ThE THoUgHt oF u nEaR...2 kNOW uR'e hERe...2 TOUch aND FeeL...2 FeEL uR WaRMth..2 FeEL uR ReAL...
"THe haRDESt THiNG 2 DO IZ 2 WAtCH THe PeRSoN yOU LoVE, LovE SoMEoNE eLSe"...
**LoVE StaRTz W/ a SmiLEGROwZ WiTH a KiSS And enDz w/ A tear**....
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